Burnout


I declare I don't care no more
I'm burning up and out and growing bored
In my smoked out boring room
My hair is shagging in my eyes
Dragging my feet to hit the street tonight
To drive along these shit town lights
I'm not growing up, I'm just burning out
And I stepped in line to walk amongst the dead

Apathy has rained on me
Now I'm feeling like a soggy dream
So close to drowning but
        I don't mind
I've lived in this mental cave
Throw emotions in the grave
Hell, who needs them anyway

***

Having a blast


I'm talking all you down with me
Explosives duct taped to my spine
Nothing gonna change my mind

I won't listen to anyone's last words
There's nothing left for you to say
Soon you'll be dead anyway

No one is getting out alive
This time I've lost my mind and I don't care
So close your eyes
And kiss yourself goodbye
And think about the times you spent and what they've meant
To me it's nothing

I'm losing all my happiness
The happiness you pinned on my
Loniliness still conforts me
My anger dwells inside of me
I'm taking it all out on you and all the shit you put me though
Do you ever think back to another time ?

Did it bring you so down that you thought you lost your mind ?
Do you ever want to lead a long trail of destruction
        and mow down any bullshit that confronts you ?
Do you ever build up all the small things in your head
To make one problem that adds up to nothing
***
 
Chump


I don't know you
But I think I hate you
You're the reason for my misery
Strange how you've become my biggest enemy
And I've never even seen your face

Maybe it's just jealousy
Mixing uo with violent mind
A cicumstance that doesn't make much sense
Or maybe I'm just dumb

You're the cloud hanging out over my head
Hail comes crashing down welting my face
Magic ma, egocentric plastic man
Yet you still got one over on me
 
***
 
Longview


Sit around and watch the tube but, nothings on
Change the channels for an hour of two
Twiddle my thumbs just for a bit
I'm sick of all the same old shit
In a house with unlocked doors
And I'm fucking lazy

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored I'm going blind !!!
And I smell like shit

Peel me off this velcro seat and get me moving
I sure as hell can't do it by myself
I'm feeling like a dog in heat
Barred indoors from the summer street
I locked the door to my own cell
And I lost the key

Sit around and watch the phone, but no one's calling
Call me pathetic, call me what you will
My mother says to get a job
But she don't like the one she's got
When masturbation's lost its fun
You're fucking breaking

Bite my lip and close my eyes
Take me away to paradise
I'm so damn bored
I'm going blind
And loneliness has to suffice
Bite my lip and close my eyes
Slipping away to paradise
Some say, "Quit or I'll go blind."
But it's just a myth
 
***
 
Welcome to paradise

Dear mother, can you hear me whining

It's been three whole weeks

Since I left your home

This sudden fear has left me trembling

Cause now it seems that I am out here on my own

And I'm feeling so alone


Pay attention to the cracked streets

And broken homes

Some call it the slums

Some call it nice

I want to take you through a wasteland I like to call my home

Welcome to paradise



A gunshot rings out at the station

Another urchin snaps and left dead on his own

It makes me wonder why I'm still here

For some strange reason it's now

Feeling like my home

And I'm never gonna go



Dear mother, can you hear me laughing

It's been six whole months since

I have left your home

It makes me wonder why I'm still here

For some strange reason it's now

Feeling like my home

And I'm never gonna go
 
***
 
Pulling teeth


I'm all busted up
Broken bones & nasty cuts
Accidents will happen
But this time I can't get up
She comes to check on me making sure I'm on my knees
After all she's the one who put me in this state

Is she ultra-violent ?
Is she disturbed ?
I better tell her I love her
Before she does it all over again
Oh god, she's killing me !!!

For now I'll lie around
Hell, that's all I can really do
She takes good care of me
Just keep saying me love is true

Looking out my window fo
Someone that passing by
No one knows I'm locked in here
All I do is cry
 
***
 
 Basket case

Do you have the time to listen to me whine

About nothing and everything all at once

I am one of those

Melodramatic fools

Neurotic to the bone

No doubt about it



Sometimes I give myself the creeps

Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me

It all keeps adding up

I think I'm cracking up

Am I just paranoid ?

I'm just stoned



I went to a shrink

To analyze my dreams

She says it's lack of sex that's bringing me down

I went to a whore

He said my life's a bore

And quit my whining cause it's bringing her down



Grasping to control

So you better hold on


***
 
She


She screams in silence
A sullen riot penetrating through her mind
Waiting for a sign to smash the silence
        with the brick of self control

Are you locked up in a world
That's been planned out for you ?
Are you feeling like a social tool without use ?

Scream at me until my ears bleed
I'm taking heed just for you

She's figured out all her doubts
Were someone else's point of view
Waking up this time to smash the silence
        with the brick of self control
 
***
 
Sassafras roots


Roaming 'round your house
Wasting your time
No obligation just
Wasting your time
So why are you alone ?
Wasting your time
When you could be with me
Wasting your time

I'm a waste like you
With nothing else to do
May I waste your time too ?

Warding off regrets
Wasting your time
Smoking cigarettes
Wasting your time
I'm just a parasite
Wasting your time
Applying myself to
Wasting your time
 
***
 
 When I come around 

I heard you crying loud all the way across town

You've been searching for that someone

        and it's me out on the prowl

As you sit around feeling sorry for yourself

Don't get lonely now

Dry your whining eyes

I'm just roaming for the moment

Sleazin' my backyard so don't get so uptight

        you been thinking about ditching me



No time to search the world around

Cause you know where I'll be found

When I come around



I heard it all before

So don't knock down my door

I'm a loser and a user so I don't need no accuser

To try and slag me down because I know you’re right

So go do what you like

Make sure you do it wise

You may find out that your selfdoubt

        means nothing was ever there



You can't go forcing something if it's just not right
 
***
 
Coming clean


Seventeen and strung out on confusion
Trapped inside a roll of disillusion
I found out what it takes to be a man
Mom and dad will never understand

Secrets collecting dust but never forget
Skeletons come to life in my closet

I found out what it takes to be a man
Mom and dad will never understand 
What's happening to me

Seventeen and coming clean for the first time
I finally figured out myself for the first time
I found out what it takes to be a man
Mom and dad will never understand 
What's happened to me
 
***
 
Emenius sleepus


I saw my friend the other day and I don't know
Exactly just what he became
It goes to show
It wasn't that long ago 
I was just like you
And now I think I'm sick and 
I wanna go home

How have I been, how have you been
It's been so long
What have you done with all your time

I knew you back when
And you... you knew me
And now I think you're sick
I wanna go home

Anybody ever say no ?
Ever tell you that you weren't right ?
Where did all the little kid go ?
Did you lose it in a hatefull fight ?
And you know it's true
 
***
 
In the end


All brawn and no brains
And all those nice things
You finally got what you want
Someone to look good with
And light your cigarette
Is this what you really want ?

I figured out what you're all about
And I don't think I like what I see
SOOOOO...
I hope I won't be there
In the end if you come around

How long will he last
Before he's a creep in the past
And you're alone once again ?
Will you pop up again and be my
        "special friend" 'till the end ?
And when will that be ?
 
***
 
F.O.D.


Something's on my mind
It's been quite some time
This time I'm on to you
So where's the other face ?
The face I heard before
Your head trip's boring me

Let's nuke the bridge we torched
2000 times before
This time we'll blast it all to hell
I've had this burning in my guts now for so long
My belly's aching now to say

Stuck down in a rut of dislogic and smut
A side of you well hid
When it's all said and dome it's real and it's been fum
But was it all real fun